My Fishy Paradise

Date: 28th Aug 2009

Time: 4.36pm

Venue: Underwater Ptd Ltd, Angelfish’s cubicle

My right eye getting more and more swollen… now almost 1/3 of my right eye view was blocked sigh….. I want to rest…….very tired….

Closing my eyes, I’m imagine myself standing on the beach of Desaru with dear dear enjoying the breeze and listening to the waves….

But what I really wish to see is snow ^_^

anyway better stop dreaming and start working if not later need to OT :P 

P/s: hope my eye get better

Been going through the same routine everyday, maybe some good news or surprises will help to brighten up my life

Every morning woke up, feel like pressing the “Replay” button again to start my day, and everything seems to be replaying once again sigh….

Everyone loves to hear good news and have surprises every now and then it sounds easy but in reality not all :)

It is impossible to always have good news and if surprise is something that you need to ask for, then it is no longer can be consider as a surprise

Hmmmm…..today as usual wake up early go to work, it’s just another boring day of work. After work I suddenly remember Devilfish will be on-call so that means there he won’t be able to call me tonight. I decided to go some where to walk around rather than stay alone at home

6.20pm: Reached a shopping mall nearby my house, went to my favourite place Harris and Popular.

6.45pm: Harris doesn’t seems to have any nice books, so I decided to go to Popular (plus I’m a Popular Card member got 10% off

7.30pm: I manage to get 2 books and a board game (looks quite interesting, I think Devilfish will like it after work he often looks very tired so usually I didn’t dare to suggest to go somewhere too far or went out too late. I think board game is nice cause we can stay indoor and play it and most important Devilfish won’t be too tired The 2 books that I bought are Slumdog Millionaire by Vikas Swarup (I’ve watched it’s movie which I think it is very nice, so I decided to buy it’s novel. Yesterday after read a few chapters I found out it is a bit different from the movie, well I guess that was normal cause normally the scriptwriters will change a bit in order to make the movie more interesting.) and My Story by Dave Pelzer (My Story it combines all the 3 books of Dave Pelzer “A Child Called It” + “The Lost Boy” + “A Man Named Dave” and it’s not very expensive I still can afford so immediately I bought it) Actually I choose quite a few items and books but after counting my budget I decided to buy 2 books and a board game, I think I really should cut down on reading I have been spending quite a lot buying books recently no wonder my mum keep on scolding sigh…..

7.45pm: I bought one Ramly burger (which taste sucks…) and a bowl of soup (which looks like glue…) for my dinner (I must admit I bought these foods cause they are the cheapest food I can find among the stalls in the bazaar, how did I know they are the cheapest ? That is because I walk to all the stalls and compare the prices before I buy my dinner hahaha…..I admit I’m a bit “auntie”

8.10pm: Reach home, starting eat my dinner (munching, spit, munching, spit “I know it is gross but hey! cannot blame me I didn’t expect inside a burger there’s a lot of tendons thingy inside! Don’t ask me what is it? I don’t know and I don’t really want to know… plus the glue like soup really sticky but it is really filing so to make sure my stomach won’t growl in the middle of the night I pinch my nose and drank it!)

9.00pm: Watch variety show on tv (luckily my room still got a TV)

9.30pm: Shower time~

10.00pm ~ 11.00pm: Watch drama

11.00 ~ 11.30pm: Read ”Slumdog Millionaire”

11.40: After sms to my dear Devilfish, yawn~ sleeping~

Recently scanning through all my friend’s profiles in Facebook and Friendster, seems like after graduated everyone is doing good some working in MNC with high pay and high position while some buying new houses and cars. I must say good job girls! Some almost traveled to almost half of the world

To some of my friends who recently just came back from their vacation here something wanna tell you guys

• Caly: Wow! Holland and France seems to be very nice and romantic ^_^
• Venice: Korea, Japan and Maldives (sorry if I left out some country) sounds  good! Thanks for sharing all the information (hahaha you said all these things I may need to know if I’m going to these countries, but I doubt I will be going so soon cos after my lasik I have to declared bankrupt hmmmm let me count……maybe 3-4 years later for me to save up )Oh ya! also thanks for all the cute souvenirs you’ve got for me and Jan_C.
• Rach: Wow! the list of countries you have travelled very hard to list out hmmm German, Spain, France, Australia, Canada, etc…….you are my idol, for me i think it is amazing for a girl to go backpacking by herself. Salute!
• Sandy: When you describe to me how beautiful Forbidden City it is, and the breath taking scenary from Great Wall, hahaha how I wish you can took more photo to show me
• LS: Wow! Spending a week in Bali sounds great….chuckle* I can imagine both you and CY sitting at the balcony watching sunset and sipping icy cold drink
• Maryam and Aleen: So nice can watch the football match between Liverpool and Manchester United in the stadium. I can’t imagine how excited both of you were whenever those hot hunks from Liverpool and Manchester United run past in front of you (remember to help get the Liverpool and England’s jersey k?
• Jan_C: Not bad lar at least can go back Seremban to rest, hey at least you went to New Zealand before
• Evelyn: Sarawak sounds really nice, if got time I also want to visit Sarawak
• L: Wish you all the best on the coming KL trip ^_^

“What you do not want done to yourself, do not do to others” ~Confucius~

At first I’m really envy my friends who able to travel to a lot of countries, But Confucius he was right, “What you do not want done to yourself, do not do to others” In my case, I didn’t have the chance to travel and I shouldn’t hope other people also didn’t have the chances to travel like me. Instead I’m feel very happy for them to be able do something that I can’t (hahaha maybe for this 3-4years only) and feed me with lots of information and also souvernirs ^_^ 

Last but not least I would say “Envy is a waste of time” hahaha….ok time back to reality got to work hopefully can save up enough money to fulfil my own dreams ^_^

Wish me good luck~

I wonder what are you doing now? Missing me ma? Chuckle*

Last Thursday when you told me that those idiots want to confiscated your handphone for 5 days I felt like struck by lightning!!! Inside my head there was a voice shouting “No!!!!!!!!!! 5 days I’m not able to hear your voice !!!!!!!” Honestly I’m glad that the reception that day was bad so that you won’t able to hear my voice is shaking while talking to you (cos I’m fighting to hold back my tears, I’m serious my tears nearly flowing out)

Tick…. Tock…. Tick…..Tock…….

As the time passed by, I never know that one minute can actually feel like one day……but luckily today is the last day I can’t wait to hear your voice and for your info I’ve been countdown to the day till we can meet

Suddenly felt I’m lost in this silent world…….Hmmmm…how did this happen? Even me myself also dunno…..

These few days as usually I’m eating alone at the hawker centre near my house. This is what happen:

1st Day:

• I was eating chicken rice (I really hate chicken rice but dunno what to choose so I order chicken rice) I choose a place facing the television so I can watch TV and swallow  eat my chicken rice.
• Suddenly the table on my left caught my attention, hmmmm…it is a family of 3 eating happily, when I saw it I felt envy.
• On my right hand side, is a couple also chatting happily while having dinner.
• In front of me, that table full of a group of friends also chatting happily, then I realized how lonely I am. Hahaha…that kind of feeling was very complicated and hard to describe
• Just when I want to continue finish off my chicken rice, suddenly I feel it was tasteless no matter how much chilli I add on it is still tasteless. Hmmmm I think I lost my appetite already so I left the plate of chicken rice which I barely touch on the table and left. 
• At the same time I realise although the surrounding of the hawker is noisy but I hear nothing, I just felt like I’ve fallen into another dimension where everything was so quiet and it seems like no one notice me like I’m transparent……hmmmm maybe it not a bad thing after all…

2nd Day:

• Lunch time, my usual lunch kaki was on MC leave. So I ask my colleague help me buy McDonald for lunch cos I prefer eating in office
• Not much appetite so I purposely order McWings (a bit spicy) but once I again I found it is tasteless even my favourite drink Coke also not able to attract me hmmmmm….no appetite.
• Dinner time, I order a bowl of noodle soup after eating a few mouthfuls I still find it is tasteless plus the silentness is unbearable (suppose to be very noisy but somehow I feel too quiet hmmmm maybe because I’m alone…..)
• Again I left the noodle soup on the table grab my bag and walk away. Passed by a grocery shop bought a packet of biscuit and milo drink and bring it back to my house to eat.
• Reached home, saw the landlord and the family chatting happily while watching tv but still I hear nothing hmmmm must something wrong with my ears…..after saying Hi ! to them I went back to my room..
• I’m munching my biscuit while looking out at the window, counting how many birds there are in the sky until the sky become dark…..still find the biscuit and milo are tasteless….

3rd Day:

• Lunch time, having grilled salmon hmmmm……my lunch kaki told me it taste fishy but again I taste nothing (basically I just swallowing my food rather than taste them )
• Then I realise my world become more and more silent, cos when I’m working my colleagues where chatting nearby me I hear nothing but a bit of buzzing sounds hmmmmmm….getting weird am I going to deaf? I hope no :-s
• After work went to gym to workout, I was running on the threadmill for 20 minutes and cycling for another 20 minutes the whole process was completely silent. I think I’m really fall into another dimension gasp! it is so quiet I nearly dozed off while I’m cycling……
• Dinner time again sigh! not much appetite so ordered a fish soup and plain rice and again it is tasteless……the soup taste like bland water (I look suspiciously at my colleagues who are slurrping and finish the whole bowl of fish soup!) I ask “hey you guys really hungry is it? the soup no taste at all like plain water you still can finish it!”  Together they replied me “Your taste bud got problem lar this soup taste heavenly how can you said it is tasteless”  Hmmmmm maybe I really should go and see doctor
• Once again the fish soup I barely touch Sorry I know I waste the food again
• After bath, I was lying down on my bed counting the stars in the sky and wondering how come so silent, I was humming “Silent Night” ……suddenly realise my pillow was wet hmmmm…..it is because of my wet hair or because of the tears flowing our from my eyes hmmmm not sure but if it is tears I guess it is not a bad thing after all hehehe it proves that my eyes are not as dry as what Dr Ng said (hehe….Dr Ng you told me I have extremely dry eyes problem see this is to prove that my eyes can be wet if I want to )

Last week was a long long week for me and Devilfish cause he is having his most important final exam……. According to Devilfish this part of examination got 2 parts which is Long Case and Short Case (Pai seh! This Angelfish is a bit blur blur and stupid do not understand what kind of exam Devilfish really facing but I know it must be a very very hard exam :(

According to Devilfish, Long Case he did quite well but for Short Case out of 3 questions there is one question he did not answer well poor Devilfish he was very worried…….. and of course Angelfish also worried too

There’s nothing Angelfish can do to help Devilfish but to pray very very hard in hope that the God won’t be so cruel to Devilfish in order to let the God feel my sincerity I’ve promise that every month’s 1st and 15th I will eat half day vegetarian (mean start from 12 am to 12 pm) (*for your information I don’t eat veggie I love meat but for the sake of my dear Devilfish it’s ok )

Finally they said the one of the results will be out on Thursday 5pm (this result is to know who are those students at the borderline needs to re-take the exam on the following day) Tick….tock…….. (pray Devilfish’s name was not in that list) 2pm……3pm…..4pm………5pm…..Yes! I called Devilfish ask him how’s the result? He said “Not yet….” Sigh! Wait again until 8pm only the result out. Phew! His name is not among the namelist there

Angelfish: “Yeah! You are safe! Thank God!”

Devilfish: “Yar I guess…”

Angelfish: “Huh??! What’s wrong? Why you sound so down?”

Devilfish: “The most important is the result that will be out tomorrow (Friday)”

Angelfish: “Huh? why ler I thought you are safe?”

Devilfish: “Today the result is to show who are at the borderlines and have chance  to re-take, but tomorrow one will be showing who pass and who fail!”

Angelfish: “Oh my god………”

Friday, hmmmmm…..Angelfish felt very restless and continuing praying for Devilfish……. the result was said 10am will be out. 8am…….9am….10am……. (called Devilfish, he said the result will be out later around 5pm) who knows until 10 pm still no news……then next day Saturday wait until 11am still no news in the end Devilfish decided to come and find me (for your info, Angelfish was doing a kinds of eye test in an eye clinic to make sure her eyes are suitable to do lasik) After doing all kinds of eyes test and dropping eye drops in Angelfish eyes everything she can saw is all misty and foggy but she still manage to recognize Devilfish among other people Although she could not see clearly but she can feel that though Devilfish was smiling warmly toward her but she can sense that deep inside his heart he is still very worried……

Until the next day when Devilfish and Angelfish spends their time at resort lazing around……suddenly Devilfish’s handphone rang! The results is out! (who will expect the result to be out on Sunday!) Together both of them were praying very hard hopefully to hear a good news..(Chuckle~ Devilfish you still remember how Angelfish crossed her fingers, toes and pray while you will answering the phone call? ) Your back was facing me when you answer the call But I will never forget the smile you have on your face when you turn around slowly facing me and make the “V” sign at me That was the nicest Smile I ever seen I’m glad that you’ve make it and become a REAL DOCTOR which I always believe that you will make it

Once again CONGRATULATIONS TO MY DEAR DR DEVILFISH!!!!!!

Time really flies, let me count……..I have been working and struggling to survive in this polluted sea for about 11 months and 8 days…. Wow! Can’t believe I’m still able to stay alive in this place J Let me see….during this 11 months and 8 days, I’ve learnt how to survive from Great White Shark’s jaw, how to escape from Octopus “The famous Pushing Blame arms” (but sometimes still could not escape in time and of course accept all the blames which pushed bestowed to me Sigh…..) and also not to forget I also learned how to avoid those Piranha who always likes to gossip concern about their colleagues.

Sigh! No choice lor for the sake of greener pasture seaweed I got to endure!! Indeed in this polluted sea, they really provided greener pasture seaweed. But somehow, I don’t really feel happy L ….. I feel very lonely living here alone…. How I wish that every night I can eat dinner with my family…I really dread the feeling of eating alone in an empty house… the house was so empty that I can even hear my own echo as I speak… I dun like the feeling of sleeping in the dark because darkness makes me feel insecure (I was not allowed to switch the lights on for whole night, landlord doesn’t allowed it…) therefore every night after work I will sit under a small light, eating my dinner quietly….but I will try to switch on TV or mp3 in my handphone so that I won’t feel so lonely…. Maybe this is why I started dun really feel want to eat dinner…

But luckily, Devilfish call me every night J At least after talking with him, darkness doesn’t seem to be that scary anymore J Thanks a lot Devilfish J

Sigh….enough grumbling liao, back to reality world J Angelfish need to continue work hahaha… to get more seaweed!

Hmmm…..life is full of choices, if you were me …which one you would be choosing greener pasture seaweed or happier life…

Happy thinking! J

Yesterday my dear Devilfish called me, he said he is going to put my name on his forms as “Fiancee” hahaha sound very glamour right?

Yeah! I’m being promoted from “Girlfriend” to “Fiancee” Hmmmm…but I was wondering do I also get any increment and additional benefits as well Looks like Devilfish you need to prepare a new set of “Letter of Appointment” for me